Almost two years have passed since the pandemic started and I can feel its true impact now. I am a positive person in general and always try to see the bright side of things. But I don't want to have this pandemic's side effects in my life any longer.
It's not even a matter of being strong or resilient. It's a matter of being fed up with the virtual world and the alienation it has brought, not to mention the loss of human lives which is far more important. I finally want to be free to go outside whenever I want to, hug people, laugh and live this life as I won't have another one.
Having taken two years living under restrictions and fear is two years too many. I know for sure others feel like this and it's fine not to be merry all the time. It's called being human and having opinions, feelings and beliefs.
I try my best to protect myself and my loved ones from the horrid impact of the restrictions. I practise yoga, breath work and meditation, I call my friends often, I read, I work out, I watch movies and TV series, I journal, I take walks in nature with my family, I interact with interesting people on social media and I never fail to cheer for my friends and family.
But I am running out of things to do that keep my spirit and my motivation going. Maintaining a healthy mental state is by far the most difficult job I have had to do over the last years. I had a panic attack in November. It was all too much and my mind just broke down.
Most days are good and then I smile big!