There have been times when things have gone wrong, when I was disappointed and I wanted to scream, cry and give up all at the same time. Especially this last year, has been one to remember, and not for a good reason!
When I don't feel well, there is no way I can hide it. As soon as you see my face, you know there's something wrong. The reactions I get from people can differ though. Sometimes I'm treated with empathy and sometimes people pretend they don't notice. It can happen. Different people have different reactions. But know this: people's reactions are theirs and have nothing to do with me or you.
So please don't let others' reactions put you off from expressing how you feel. Remember, you are human and you are entitled to have feelings about anything that seems important to you, every hour of every day. Let's not allow inhibitions and stereotypes, aka what other people think, suppress our emotional world.
I keep reminding myself that just because I feel this way now, doesn't mean I will feel this way forever. It shall pass. Everything passes, more or less. The feelings of sadness, disappointment, frustration and bitterness are so intense exactly because they last the least. Theoretically, they are not supposed to last long. If they do, it means I need to do something about it.
I try to constantly embrace the way I feel. I acknowledge it. And if someone asks me how I feel, I don't avoid telling them. I will speak the truth about my feelings regardless of the reaction it will generate. We have to learn that it's ok not to be ok. We have to train ourselves to accept that it is absolutely fine to feel however we feel.
Personally, I have a variety of feelings and usually they are intense, therefore I express myself because I don't want these feelings to be bottled up inside me. I don't want to explode or lose my marbles one day, I want to be able to acknowledge, understand and process everything I have inside of me. I want to be productive and when I cry, it is my way of expressing my sadness or joy.
Feelings are such a big chapter of our life and there is so much to be said or written about them. Have a look here if you are interested in doing something good for your mental health.
And please remember that IT'S OK NOT TO BE OK and it's even better if you ask for help. I am here if you want to talk and I will never ignore you. And this is a huge promise.
P.S. No yoga class this weekend as I am super busy but I will be back soon full of energy and new ideas! In the meantime, take a look at my services here.