I wanted to write this blog for a long time. As someone who was highly competitive in the past and now simply tries to follow the eight limbs of yoga, I have a few things to say on this subject. During my younger years, I wanted to be the best volleyball player, have the perfect relationship, look absolutely amazing and generally speaking, I was aiming for perfection in everything I did.
I wanted the perfect timing, the perfect decisions and the perfect outcomes and nothing less. Of course, this would rarely happen as such is life. With time and yoga's help, I learnt to appreciate the process, the journey that would take me to my goal. And even that goal sometimes changed from its original form; it was all determined by the process! The process that in reality was progress.
Practising yoga has taught me to drop expectations and shift gears when needed. I have let go of the attachment to achieve perfection and to try so hard in my postures, just to admire myself in them and feel accomplished. The achievement in asanas will come at the right time and when I'm ready for them. I do attempt some of the more challenging poses and I do get annoyed when I don't nail them. This is exactly what brings me to practise swadyaya (personal observance) even more.
Headstand (sirsasana) progress